It's sad..

to know.. the places that we used to be, and used to do..
but that someone is being with someone..
imagination and thought kills. indirectly.
I don't know..
WHY THE FUCK I CAN'T GET OVER YOU!
WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING LET THINGS GO!
WHY THE FUCK DO I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT PROMISES MADE!
WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER LIKE THIS!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.. =,(

They said,
I don't know why you still can't get over her. Maybe you're too serious. That makes you loyal.
It's because your love is pure and sincere.
It's because you're way too mature and serious in relationships. You're the type that will keep on holding on no matter how hard it is, unless, something you really hate the most happens? Gotcha.
It's because you treat her as if she's everything to you. You're a beta right? Yeah!
It's because the length that you have gone through, isn't easy, but made it out alive. But someone gives up. That's why you're like this.
It's because the promises that you have made to her, you will really want to make it up to it, you have planned everything, and suddenly shit happens, you want things to get in line, but can't. You are frust, sad, disappointed right?

Well.. I take things seriously I do admit. Because I believe in one, those who have made it for 10 years, 20 years, 30 years, 40 years.. And still holding hands eventhough their hair gone white..
It's not childish, different people different perspective.
Those who can't even handle pressure, gives up so easily, break promises, lies, curses people with foul words, only knows how to say with a big mouth.
Are the ones who are childish.

Another tiring day..
Expressing in anger and sorrow..