I LOVE LOVE LOVE HER VELI MUCHIE!

Well.. working days in brussels beer cafe really do sucks, as in its boring.. =.="

PHEW! But finally working days are over and same goes to sem break ='( sad case huh...
Couldn't enjoy much, but i really appreciate the time being with my wifey, even though its short, but I really enjoyed the time being with her!


We had great times together especially in the waterfalls, ulu yam! (well took me quite some time to really know where exactly it is located) =.="
I love her smiles and her giggles, like those little fishes swimming around her feet, startled, and smiled, and seriously that melts me! =,)

Then after waterfalls, we went to IKEA! She loves ice-cream, that's why whenever she wants ice-cream, I would die to get it for her <3 We went to IKEA to have a stroll around, and somehow it opened up our minds, a clearer and brighter future to aim! We saw plenty of showrooms, and we talked about what we liked, and she has a lot in common with me! That makes us even easier to decorate our future house together cuz we have the same taste~ yum yum! Love u so much b!<3

And yeah...a new sem starts, I'm gonna miss those moments together, but, we HAVE TO BE STRONG AND BELIEVE! Cuz its gonna be even tougher, more challenges to go through...but no matter how baby, always remember I love you, and I will always pamper u the same my love, Julia Marin.

I LOVE u with all my heart b! <3

BRUSSELS BEER CAFE

WOKAY! It is time to update again...muahahaha! Currently me and my wifey are working in this cafe named, Brussels Beer Cafe. Well, it took us quite some time so find this cafe...it is located in KL, a shopping mall named, The Weld. Very near to Beach Club ;D

Well, working here in BBC is kinda fun, the ppl, the environment =)
It's like somehow, 1 whole family eventhough we're new...not so sure how well it will go and how it's gonna be.. Btw, the beers here are alot! We get to learn alot of new stuff haha
And today, we have just tasted 10 of the beers, which is Stella Artois, Hoegaarden White, Leffe Blond, Leffe Brune, Blackthorn Cider (kinda sweet, in the same way, abit bitter...weird but nice), Carlsberg Extra Cold, Belle-Vue Kriek (Cherry flavored beer...yum yum =), Tetley's English Ale (something like Kilkenny), Connor's Original Stout, and Franziskaner Dunkel.
This place is kinda small...easy to manage, NOTHING TO DO REALLY!...Its like "makan gaji buta" =.=" and for that, it's really hard for us to past time...haish~
Friendly boss and colleagues. Food provided for staff...but the food is like local dish la...claypot, or mixed rice la, while the customers are eating like oink oink (^oo^) out there... ohwell...better than nothing ryte?

Anyway, working our ass out there (as in, working really hard...so don't get me wrong LOL), for the sake of money..
Seriously, money is almost everything...without money, we're dead...
My wifey is working really hard to get the Canon EOS, I felt kinda useless...cuz i couldn't get her straight away or just buy it like that for her...I felt so useless as a guy who really wants my wifey to be happy, who doesn't want my wifey to be working out there and suffer the pain...i just wanna pamper her so much...haish, if only I'm rich...sad me. ='(

So...if there's ppl out there who knows someone who can give a good discount, pls pls pls tell me.
Haish...life is hard, what to do...this is life, filled with challenges and obstacles...
Poor sem break...couldn't enjoy you. ='(

Luckily my wifey is with me...if not, I would be dead..
I love my wifey Julia soooooooooo much! <3

Something about me ;D

Well, it's no use talking about that the previous post, all it takes it's realization, determination, and stand up facing all the shits ahead and never give up. You're still living, and to live is to face it! It's generally for everyone, including me.

I have my times of fucking emotional, maybe it's told but forgotten. No one understands me either, no one tells me what to do, but only discourages me in doing what I want and saying that I can't succeed, don't waste your money, its hard, this and that. How confuse am I! Why the fuck am I late for 1 year.. Do not know what to do and financial is always in the way, I wanted this and that, but I need to think back, its only gonna give more burden to my parents, if not, I'm in taylors or lim kok wing already. Why would I even ended up in TARC? My parents couldn't support me! And so I patiently worked my ass for 1 year to lessen my parents burden.

I'm a human, I have feelings, I get tired too. If I don't think rationally, I would still be working and loafing around like a spoiled and useless asshole. You don't know what fuck I've been through, eating white bread after school for lunch and wait for dinner. I've never even step out of this fucking country MALAYSIA before! All my life is in KL. How bored my life is?

Worked my ass out there and only earn RM3.20 per hour as a waiter, from morning till night, by bus, ALONE EVERYDAY! Save my own money when I was 14, bought my first phone, got stolen by a "friend". Bought my first computer when I was 16, also working my ass off. And what fuck, got cheated by a "friend". I've never really trusted anyone since then. I've learn my lesson, and yeah, I've learn a lot of stuff in life. Though it took me months to really save up the money working shitty jobs out there that I don't even remember. Get fucked up by bosses, customers, eventhough it's not my fault! Who cares, ALL I WANT IS MONEY! NOTHING CAN STOP ME! Unless my wifey la =x

I see my friends have handphone, computer, ps2, this and that, I want it too so badly, when they ask, what is your number? I can only say, yeah, but house phone number, is it okay? School projects, Cikgu, "balik rumah, taip lah isi-isi untuk projek ini", majority of the students said, "baik cikgu", and I was one of the minority. Hmm...soo, let me guess, whine about it? It's not gonna fall from the sky you know?

Well, some people feel happy when they discourage, killing hope, backstabbing people better than them, and feel good in their downfalls. So that they feel that they are not alone. Just live your life and don't give a damn. Don't let others interfere, and discourage you! If you have no choice already, make good use of it and remind yourself about the good things about it.

My story doesn't end here, and it's not important. What's important is live life to the fullest and move on, never look back, and don't give up. There are people far more worst than my past experiences. Homeless, hunger, no parents...this is life, some have some, some have none.
Move on people out there! Good listeners will usually do well, but people with high ego will somehow takes time to realize as most of the time they will disagree with what people say cause they are always right.

People out there reading this, don't take it so seriously and personally, as what I'm saying here is based on my experience and researches, and it's for people to understand bit more about mankind. I may be right and be wrong, it is all up to your understanding. Hopefully I did not give a wrong subliminal message. Take care and best of luck people out there.

KNOCK KNOCK! WAKE UP!!

Ahh! Finally I got the freaking time to update my blog. First things first, I want to say I LOVE YOU JULIA MARIN! LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! <3



OKAY, don't get me wrong, but this is generally for humankind and it's normal.There are times when we're always down and emotional, complaining and whining, feeling useless and hopeless. Oh well, it's normal. But the fact is, IT'S NOT CHANGE A FREAKING THING! Unless you're gonna depend on sympathy from someone and hoping that someone would give you what you want. Nothing drops from the sky, unless it's a airplane crashing down or bird's poop =x


GREAT RIGHT?! I feel bad for the kid though.. >.<" Okay, back to the topic. It's NOT GONNA HELP FEELING USELESS! Instead of feeling useless, try finding a solution and move on, shout out to yourself and always remember how great you are and what you gonna do, don't let others discourage you! I'm pretty sure some of you out there are like that!



Its not gonna change a freaking thing, hiding at the corner crying, hurting yourself, doing stupid things. Sympathy? Understanding? It's actually determination that you need. Where there is a will, there is a way. Make the first step, don't look back, don't stop, and move on until you succeed. (OF COURSE ITS SOMETHING POSITIVE, NOT DOING BAD STUFF LIKE TAKING DRUGS) =.="

Then, always remember what you've been through and what brings you up, is what you are right now. For some emotional freaks out there, this may be a shit talk, saying is easy...bla bla bla, go on continue whining. Anyhow and no matter how, I love talking shit ;)

I'm so sorry for everything...

For the past few days, I don't have much time to spend on my com and update stuff...even with my beloved comel comel wifey...I'm so sorry... =,(
Haish...it's all about study and assignments...



I really really love my wife so much...I want to spend all day long with her so much...
But...haish...my timetable really sux =,(

But no matter how, always always always remember that I love you with all my heart baby, Julia Marin! Always remember that no one in this world can replace u, no one can stop me from loving you baby. I'm all yours. Always remember that.

I really miss you baby...I missed everything, the happy moments we spend together =,(

And always remember to smile even if I'm not there! Cuz your smile is my strength, my spirit, my everything.
Thank you so much baby.

Love the music, as it opens up my mind. <3

Stupid liquid bombs =.="

I'm sick and tired of running to the toilet for so many times just to bomb.


Anyhow, from what I've learn, IT IS BEST NOT TO EAT SOMETHING OILY AND GO FREAKING DRINK SOMETHING THAT IS WITH MILK CONTENT. THEY ARE NOT SWEET COUPLES! THEY WILL FIGHT IN YOUR STOMACH AS A BATTLEFIELD AND LEAVE BLOODY SHITS IN YOUR STOMACH! ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT!

GO AWAY!

OK, my fucking sick stomach and fever is now gone!! Back to normal!!!
THANKS TO MY WIFE, FOR BUYING ME A COKE, I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!
AND ALSO THANKS TO THE PANADOL ACTI-FAST!! =)
WUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!



WOOHOOOOOO. I'm happy I get to meet my wife today, looking at her makes me smile! =D

My life is boring, nothing much to tell...its all the same daily routine in the process of achieving my dreams...what to do, I'm still depending on my parents...but, its all gonna be ashes soon. Nothing much to talk about my life...cuz it's all boring. But life just gets interesting together with my wife, Julia Marin =D

I'm not being secretive, just that, I have nothing much to tell, and I'm trying to erase the past of bitterness off my head, and enjoy sweet dreams instead. Oh well...going to Desa Petaling later to take Antonio hehe =D

OPEN YOUR EYES WIDE AND CONCENTRATE! YOU"RE MISSING SOMETHING...

Then again...feeling Sick =,(

Had great fun yesterday morning together with my wife, and to me, I've learn a lot of new things. ;D

Then in college, my team was the first to finish the tiling workshop (40mins earlier than the rest of the team), and yeah, gotta admit (not lanci ok) its the most beautiful of all HAHA! No offence to other team bebs! Haish, we thought we can go back early after finishing, but the asshole lecturer said, OH NO~~~ YOU HAVE TO WAIT FOR OTHER TEAMS~~~ IN A FAGGY WAY OF TALKING~~~ eat this o0o(=,=) o0o!

After college, straight to the arms of my wife, and omg, so comforting being with her. Just seeing her makes my day! Not seeing her a day can make my life zombie-like. Just like L4D =(

Then in the night, she met her cousing sis and step bro, oh yeah...his bro was a hottie =p makes me insecure when she said "How I wish he was not my bro! Just kidding" with a giggle...
Its okay, i trust her with all my heart! =D

Then we went to Desa Petaling to take her aunt and her kids...OMG CUTE RAHUL and arman! Haish...wish rahul was mine wuahahaha! Gotta upload the photo soon. Then we get em and went to setapak, nearby the roundabout, there's a stall like mamak, but not mamak, anyhow, the cook is a ...erm...hehe....man with boobs. =D

After eating, we went to Sg. Wang and makan dulian...ohh...D24, nice shit! Then we send them back to Desa Petaling together with Antonio...kesian Antonio haha..

Me and my wife went back together lo...and SHIT, i went to the wrong turning as it was night...couldn't see well, and went to bangsar...=.=" anyhow, i followed my wife's instinct cuz i don't wanna follow mine...but then...quite dissapointed when i said the road is correct, also she said its wrong haiyo...have confidence in me la =(

Then went back to Forlong, settle everything and kaboom...back to banging my bed...

10th July

FUCKED UP DAY...woke up nearly around 2 pm...waiting and waiting for my wife's msg, and around 4 pm...i found my pants...wet. I had stomach pain since morning until 4pm +...its was sickening man...this diarrhea was the worst I've even felt...then again...I was hoping my wife to be with me...I'm really wishing already...and I'm gonna see how it goes...it's cuz she was maybe busy in the afternoon...and so i let her finish what shes doing and I'll wait for her...

No pain, no gain...

I think...just telling is no use, but to feel it, is learning.

just saying what I'm feeling right now...

Anyhow, life is a learning process, just have to go through everything and find the meaning of life in our little story book. We learn from our mistakes and take things seriously so that history will never be repeated again. We learn to stand up still and even stronger after countless failures, and success comes after. We try to make things so perfect, but in the end its all crumble and rubble to be embraced. We expect the best but ended up the worst, and sober in tears is left to be expressed. We tend to dream, as motionless takes place, and its all but hopeless. Even little things can be deadly, when it's imbalance...you never know when it's going to be hell.

"Were only taking turns,
Holding this world,
It's how it's always been,
When you're older, you will understand"

THINK POSITIVE!!!

Oh My GOD! No one in this world is so perfect to me OK! Realize that! I really had fun throughout the days spent together on Friday - Sunday (2nd-4th of July). You're just thinking too much...that's all! I'm so sorry for being so spaced out and quiet...but I'm just trying to clear off some of the things in my skull...

1st - ASSIGNMENTS, Don't have to worry about me doing it or not, cause I am doing it! Sometimes I'm quiet, I'm just thinking which one to finish up and pass up as soon as possible so that I could spend more time and pamper my love. <3

2nd - GROUP ASSIGNMENTS, Sometimes I'm planning how to solve their problems, It's so hard for me to even scold them, cause I don't want to make enemies, but friends whom I might be needing in the future, maybe not about the course they've studied and work, but maybe in other things that they are in major of...I've been working for quite some time, and yeah...I have learned a lot about socializing and networking. I can only let my opinions out, and let them think.. And usually what I explained to them, they followed...quite stressed when their not listening or being ego, well...I'm just thinking how to solve it in a diplomatic way, that's all ;D

3rd - YOU, My life is not just about me now, it's about you and me. I'm sometimes planning about our future, future career, how much can I earn, the work load, time management, owning a house and a car for my future family with what I'm doing in the long run.. The problem with me sometimes is that...I think too much and too far, cause I care not just about me, but my wife and maybe my kids, their insurance, education, warm shelter and how to raise them up. Something like that... But remember, you're not the cause of it, it is you that my life now is with goals and objectives to be achieved, if it's not you, I'm still in the zombie-like form...

I'm really happy that you're in my life, I would walk a thousand mile to just to see you smile, I would let the rain pour on me, just to see you sleep and sound in warmth, I would sacrifice, just to see you breathe and live.. I don't mind and I don't care about the past.. If it's not for the past, you wouldn't be the person you are right now, knowing what is good and bad, know how to appreciate the people around you, know whether a person is good or not, it's all from your experience, you've learned your mistakes, so don't let history repeat itself, and that is why, you know the black and white, which is good, and which is bad, and cherish it.

So don't you ever dare to let me go, cause if it's not because of you, my life would still be a cage. But if you really want to be with someone else and do stupid things to make me pissed...you don't have to, just tell me straight off my face. But I know you're so NOT that type of person. You're so perfect to me, you're good, talented, smart, spontaneous, so cute and sweethearted...and letting you go is = meeting Michael Jackson to me. So don't think too much okay B!

I love you with all my heart, Julia Marin! <3
and I will never let you go! <3 Cause I can't!!

What's left...

It's been awhile i haven't post anything. Really sorry! To be honest, I'm dead on working, died emotionless, and shit happens. What to do, this is life, challenges to be overcome. I've got not much to tell, cause it's all bitter memories of lies and fake smiles left behind. It's not that I don't want to share or express, cause its like a beehive, it only stings when you touch it. As it may be bloody...

I lose friends who I thought was best friends as I express it. People tend to look more into the negative side rather than looking at the positive side as they take it for granted, and make decisions according to the negative side of what they think, and totally forget about the positive side, the good things that has happen. Their faces, actions, eye contact, whatever they do says it all. I don't want to think negative and let shit happen again, I moved on, leaving beehives as it should be, just forget it and let it fade away. It's been years I've only been keeping it to myself, and got used to it. I personally think this world wouldn't be at peace if everyone expresses it. Believe it or not it's your choice, I'm only saying things according to my experience, paths and pains that I've been through. Even just to save a penny, I would walk kilos. Just to see someone smile, I would feel the pain myself.

My life, I'm boring, I'm quiet, I'm annoying. I've been through so much alone. I don't talk much as it might erupt something if I used the wrong words. This is life, some people take it bla bla bla doesn't care, and some might take it seriously, and may become sensitive. I want to succeed in what I dream of, what goals I've set and determine. I want to get away and start of something new, I don't mind waiting if it's possible, even if it take years to achieve. I will still stand, work for it and while waiting.

My story continues after the bakery shop then --> being in a project management team in damansara perdana condo for few months, yeah i learn alot --> and I landed up in T.G.I Friday's. Worked my ass over there for 7 months+(2009 - 2010). As a waiter, host, bartender. Friday's sent me to work for 2 events, it was held in a club named Stylo, which was Lady Gaga's fashion show, and also in a huge hall, which was held in High Convention Centre in Sentul, as a waiter and bartender for what modeling show shit I don't even care about. All I care is about the money I'm getting.



Yeah, it's quite long for me working in Friday's, I've been through alot, learn alot and did alot of things over there. It's not just for myself, but also for others as they put high hopes and smiles. And so I did it for em...(Halloween 2009)



If you don't believe, try and asking the managers or seniors working in T.G.I Friday's in Wangsa Walk who did all those ugly drawings and shitty paintings during Halloween 2009, yeah me, not hail me, but fail me, cause I don't think people really appreciate it. Anyhow we got 1st prize, I'm happy for it, but...it was quite disappointing due to some fucking idiots. I don't give a damn. This is the last drawing I did it for Friday's(TEX MEX 2010), and ciaoz...have fun decorating and feel it.
Anyhow, it was dead like working there, lifeless...meaningless somehow, its a morning - night working life. With smiles of just smiles emotionless.

Someone changed my life, it was a fine morning as I saw her, and it's also my last day as a host before shifting to a bartender. As I saw her, I thought she was just another typical materialistic girl that I call, bitch. But, I was wrong...she changed my perception, she changed everything in me, gave me warmth and comfort that I've never felt before, I started to melt, confused in thoughts. The chains that locked my heart loosens slowly and finally, its opened. She got me. She gave me strength and sharpens my dreams and goals that I'm supposed to achieve...she gave me the light, shinning through my doubts away. I really want to thank her, as she awaken me and gave me life in my emotions that has long died...I fell for her so deeply that I could never rise again if shit happens again...

I really do hope shes the one for me, so many things suddenly seems right for what I've been doing in my story book, it's getting a clearer sight, I'm living my life meaningful, cause I have someone to care for, someone to live and love. She built the little shattered pieces of me, my heart back together, and I really hope it will never break again...as it will never be mend again, cause this will be the last for me! She will be the first and last I'm giving my everything. For so long I've been wondering who is that girl in my dreams when I was small, and finally, I know...all the dejavu happened, it was so clear and true. OMG! It's her! I really really really hope she's the one, my first and last. I really want to thank you for everything, if it's not because of you, I'm still dead in my zombie life. Thank you so much, thank you so much for lighten up my life, thank you so much for everything, Julia Marin.

My beloved wife and me. =D

Happy moments together~!

I love u very much baby~! <3

Wake me up!

I'M STILL ALIVE!
Gonna make things right very soon ;D
Anyhow, tomorrow is my mum's birthday...so...HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH MOM! (In advance incase I'm busy... =x)