Well, it's no use talking about that the previous post, all it takes it's realization, determination, and stand up facing all the shits ahead and never give up. You're still living, and to live is to face it! It's generally for everyone, including me.
I have my times of fucking emotional, maybe it's told but forgotten. No one understands me either, no one tells me what to do, but only discourages me in doing what I want and saying that I can't succeed, don't waste your money, its hard, this and that. How confuse am I! Why the fuck am I late for 1 year.. Do not know what to do and financial is always in the way, I wanted this and that, but I need to think back, its only gonna give more burden to my parents, if not, I'm in taylors or lim kok wing already. Why would I even ended up in TARC? My parents couldn't support me! And so I patiently worked my ass for 1 year to lessen my parents burden.
I'm a human, I have feelings, I get tired too. If I don't think rationally, I would still be working and loafing around like a spoiled and useless asshole. You don't know what fuck I've been through, eating white bread after school for lunch and wait for dinner. I've never even step out of this fucking country MALAYSIA before! All my life is in KL. How bored my life is?
Worked my ass out there and only earn RM3.20 per hour as a waiter, from morning till night, by bus, ALONE EVERYDAY! Save my own money when I was 14, bought my first phone, got stolen by a "friend". Bought my first computer when I was 16, also working my ass off. And what fuck, got cheated by a "friend". I've never really trusted anyone since then. I've learn my lesson, and yeah, I've learn a lot of stuff in life. Though it took me months to really save up the money working shitty jobs out there that I don't even remember. Get fucked up by bosses, customers, eventhough it's not my fault! Who cares, ALL I WANT IS MONEY! NOTHING CAN STOP ME! Unless my wifey la =x
I see my friends have handphone, computer, ps2, this and that, I want it too so badly, when they ask, what is your number? I can only say, yeah, but house phone number, is it okay? School projects, Cikgu, "balik rumah, taip lah isi-isi untuk projek ini", majority of the students said, "baik cikgu", and I was one of the minority. Hmm...soo, let me guess, whine about it? It's not gonna fall from the sky you know?
Well, some people feel happy when they discourage, killing hope, backstabbing people better than them, and feel good in their downfalls. So that they feel that they are not alone. Just live your life and don't give a damn. Don't let others interfere, and discourage you! If you have no choice already, make good use of it and remind yourself about the good things about it.
My story doesn't end here, and it's not important. What's important is live life to the fullest and move on, never look back, and don't give up. There are people far more worst than my past experiences. Homeless, hunger, no parents...this is life, some have some, some have none.
Move on people out there! Good listeners will usually do well, but people with high ego will somehow takes time to realize as most of the time they will disagree with what people say cause they are always right.
People out there reading this, don't take it so seriously and personally, as what I'm saying here is based on my experience and researches, and it's for people to understand bit more about mankind. I may be right and be wrong, it is all up to your understanding. Hopefully I did not give a wrong subliminal message. Take care and best of luck people out there.
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