Facebook

sometimes really bang my balls. I just hate surfing on her site, and questions starts pouring in who the fuck is this guy, and pulak menggatal add? Yeah, simply add people.. Randomness! FUCK YOU PEOPLE!

Btw, maybe realization won't be achieved even if I said it a thousand times, unless it is FELT.
Oh well, I just feel like deleting my fucking facebook account and just leave life be.
Why am I like this recently? YOU SHOULD KNOW WHY?!

1st : FUCK YOU, I'M DONE WITH YOU!
2nd : I'm sorry, I don't mean it..
3rd : I'm really fucking tired of you!
4th : I'm sorry, you know when I'm angry I don't mean it.

Banging back and forth. And why my mood just changes like this? Well, fuck the social network.
Not just that, please at least FUCKING REMEMBER what I said. If it is done just for the sake of shutting me up right infront of me, and when I'm not around, everything goes wild. Really... Seriously... I'm getting on my nerves.. I really.. Dunno.. What the fuck should I do anymore.. Sometimes I feel like giving up... But in my heart, there is always a way.. =,(
FUCK MY LIFE AGAIN!

Oh

well.. another day passed by, things are just things, thought it would be just NORMAL day but guess what.. MY DAD K.Oed MY LAPTOP!!! FUCKING SHIT!!!

I am so fucking stressed with life, there comes in another fucking shit! FUCK MY LIFE! Haish.. Why me.. T.T when is this all gonna end.. T.T

Anyhow anyway, I love my honey Julia Marin very much, more and even more.. But still, sometimes makes me pissed. Oh well.. I Love You Hunny Bunny~! <3
Better hope my friends will be working and hopefully there is some sales going on! PLEASE SUBSCRIBE YOU HUMANS!!

Unify, Streamyx, Maxis, P1 W1MAX, Celcom.. Watever Broadband, or Home-Broadband or Internet line.
Contact me through my chat box and I'll send the details you want to know =)

Just forget it.

I don't need anyone to remember me or what I have done.

Anymore..

Wounds

can be healed and recover.. Or maybe not.. No matter what medicine is used, time is of the essence. Even though you may have recover from it, the trauma, pain, and scars.. lies within, and thing might never be the same anymore.

Imagine you lost your arm in a fight, and when your opponent knows he is wrong and begged for forgiveness, will that arm of yours come back to you even though you have forgiven them? The casualties are there.

But think of it optimistically, feelings.. understanding.. as we learn from mistakes.. but if we repeat it or is a must to taste it only learning is achieved. Is dumb, in a good way, strong witted. Chances and choices are there, but the same still happens. Stubborn.

Anyhow anyway, I'm okay. I'm happy. I'm content. I'm observing and follows the stream. I do not have the power to foresee future, we never know what comes ahead, and my plans should not be planned accordingly. As it always turns out to be opposite. 4/5.

Not everyone is lucky to have what they want, have, and achieved.
Once gone, regret awaits. Cherish is better than perish.

Expressiveness kills?

I'm just expressing, so who cares. I don't know how it feels cause I'm always the victim. Am tired of always keeping it, trying to cool myself down, and swallow it, hoping it will go through my bladder and flush it away. Unfortunately, it got digested into my body.. and never came out. There goes.. It stays in me like my body. Permanent scars.

Lesson learned, never do "everything" for someone you love so much. Cause in the end, the one hurts the most is you yourself when the result of hoping for the good.

Now, I had to suffer time without being together someone I love so much.
Got frustrated when she excels in work, and not me, where I restrict myself.
Attention all goes to her, not me, where I always have to.

I should have kept my limits. Not wanting more or giving more, but leave things as they should. Fuck life. I hate life. All I want turns out to be fucking opposite, from head to toe. I FUCKING HATE LIFE! I REALLY FUCKING HOPE I DROP DEAD WITHIN LESS THAN A SECOND.
If only I could control myself totally, I wouldn't have fallen into this shit. Thank you so much God made us so brilliant.

Yeah.. Just forget it.

Dots of me..

Disappointment, frustration, stressed, tension, fucked up, lies, dramas, jealousy, tired, restless, lifeless, meaningless, lost.









I just don't know anymore..

Life

is just plain meaningless when there is no proper income flowing into your wallet.

Well.. Gotta stop thinking of achieving my dreams of being an Architect. Studies, Food, Transportation, whatever shit.. = Money [FULLSTOP]

What? Why? Where?

What happened?
Nothing. *Head nods*

Why? What is it about?
Just want to go somewhere really far. And never return. Leave everyone with their hearts broken, wondering where am I, what am I doing, and when I returned, thinking that they might missed me, or appreciate me, or maybe non of that, or maybe something related to hate, I don't give a damn.

Where? Where is that place?
Hell.

What you see is not what it seems to be.

Sometimes, people just look, and glanced at that particular situation and there goes, list of unthinkable thoughts just starts pouring in. The past, things that we are afraid, or things that might happen in the future, and so..

By the way, I do check time to time. But sometimes, I just hate it when I see things and think of the unthinkable. It just pours into my fucking brains! So what the hell? You think things would just happen like that without a reason?

Sometimes, expressing here isn't really a good idea. You read the first post, it says, were breaking up. Then the second post, oh no! It's not really. 3rd post, I definitely breaking up. 4th post, no..
Wtf? Ping pong balls in the pants where u just bang forth and back? Jeez..

I'm a human with feelings, not a robot. If you're leaving, then leave. But always remember what goes around comes around. Maybe happiness is there outside waiting for you. Go ahead and don't even look back. Once you're free, you are free, but not absolute. I'm tired. After reading the past posts.. All I can say is, Life is just a DRAMA. No wonder when it's gone, you just let it be, and never want it back. Start something new instead, but some people just somehow get to know how to redirect and read it.

1)Happy --> 2)Not Happy --> 3)Leave --> 4)Happy
1)With someone --> 2)Fought/misunderstood --> 3)Fly far far away/ leave everyone behind --> 4)Find someone new.

I'm not a psycho, but everything makes me think like psycho.