What's left...

It's been awhile i haven't post anything. Really sorry! To be honest, I'm dead on working, died emotionless, and shit happens. What to do, this is life, challenges to be overcome. I've got not much to tell, cause it's all bitter memories of lies and fake smiles left behind. It's not that I don't want to share or express, cause its like a beehive, it only stings when you touch it. As it may be bloody...

I lose friends who I thought was best friends as I express it. People tend to look more into the negative side rather than looking at the positive side as they take it for granted, and make decisions according to the negative side of what they think, and totally forget about the positive side, the good things that has happen. Their faces, actions, eye contact, whatever they do says it all. I don't want to think negative and let shit happen again, I moved on, leaving beehives as it should be, just forget it and let it fade away. It's been years I've only been keeping it to myself, and got used to it. I personally think this world wouldn't be at peace if everyone expresses it. Believe it or not it's your choice, I'm only saying things according to my experience, paths and pains that I've been through. Even just to save a penny, I would walk kilos. Just to see someone smile, I would feel the pain myself.

My life, I'm boring, I'm quiet, I'm annoying. I've been through so much alone. I don't talk much as it might erupt something if I used the wrong words. This is life, some people take it bla bla bla doesn't care, and some might take it seriously, and may become sensitive. I want to succeed in what I dream of, what goals I've set and determine. I want to get away and start of something new, I don't mind waiting if it's possible, even if it take years to achieve. I will still stand, work for it and while waiting.

My story continues after the bakery shop then --> being in a project management team in damansara perdana condo for few months, yeah i learn alot --> and I landed up in T.G.I Friday's. Worked my ass over there for 7 months+(2009 - 2010). As a waiter, host, bartender. Friday's sent me to work for 2 events, it was held in a club named Stylo, which was Lady Gaga's fashion show, and also in a huge hall, which was held in High Convention Centre in Sentul, as a waiter and bartender for what modeling show shit I don't even care about. All I care is about the money I'm getting.



Yeah, it's quite long for me working in Friday's, I've been through alot, learn alot and did alot of things over there. It's not just for myself, but also for others as they put high hopes and smiles. And so I did it for em...(Halloween 2009)



If you don't believe, try and asking the managers or seniors working in T.G.I Friday's in Wangsa Walk who did all those ugly drawings and shitty paintings during Halloween 2009, yeah me, not hail me, but fail me, cause I don't think people really appreciate it. Anyhow we got 1st prize, I'm happy for it, but...it was quite disappointing due to some fucking idiots. I don't give a damn. This is the last drawing I did it for Friday's(TEX MEX 2010), and ciaoz...have fun decorating and feel it.
Anyhow, it was dead like working there, lifeless...meaningless somehow, its a morning - night working life. With smiles of just smiles emotionless.

Someone changed my life, it was a fine morning as I saw her, and it's also my last day as a host before shifting to a bartender. As I saw her, I thought she was just another typical materialistic girl that I call, bitch. But, I was wrong...she changed my perception, she changed everything in me, gave me warmth and comfort that I've never felt before, I started to melt, confused in thoughts. The chains that locked my heart loosens slowly and finally, its opened. She got me. She gave me strength and sharpens my dreams and goals that I'm supposed to achieve...she gave me the light, shinning through my doubts away. I really want to thank her, as she awaken me and gave me life in my emotions that has long died...I fell for her so deeply that I could never rise again if shit happens again...

I really do hope shes the one for me, so many things suddenly seems right for what I've been doing in my story book, it's getting a clearer sight, I'm living my life meaningful, cause I have someone to care for, someone to live and love. She built the little shattered pieces of me, my heart back together, and I really hope it will never break again...as it will never be mend again, cause this will be the last for me! She will be the first and last I'm giving my everything. For so long I've been wondering who is that girl in my dreams when I was small, and finally, I know...all the dejavu happened, it was so clear and true. OMG! It's her! I really really really hope she's the one, my first and last. I really want to thank you for everything, if it's not because of you, I'm still dead in my zombie life. Thank you so much, thank you so much for lighten up my life, thank you so much for everything, Julia Marin.

My beloved wife and me. =D

Happy moments together~!

I love u very much baby~! <3