When we were together.. You started controlling me.. Not going out with friends late at night, cannot wear body fit shirt, have a distance between girls.. I followed everything you said.. I don't even complain, straight away I follow, in order to make you happy, where it will goes same to me. But you always break the rules that you have made.. =,(
You always complain I'm controlling.. It's because I care..
You yourself even said that.. Please control me, cause if not, I might go over the limits. Its a good thing that you're controlling me and you felt care. And so did I. But now you're blaming me for everything.. The promises.. Pinky promises.. =,(
The only thing I control you is that about what you're wearings, I admit myself, but you should know why.. It's because you don't know how to cover yourself.. I expressed, that is what you wanted from me. But when I express, you said I'm annoying.. Try asking any guy out there, will they say stuff about wearing something they don't like towards they're girlfriend or wife that they care sooooo much.. but if other girls, we don't even care, all we do is enjoy sight seeing and washing our eyes. We care, that is why we say it, cause indirectly we felt hurt when people keeps on looking and staring when things are free for sight seeing.
Going out late at night, I don't mind seriously.. But it's NOT me controlling that, your mom is controlling you that. Every time when we go out late at night, how I wish I could spend more time with you.. but when your mom calls.. I understand.
Meeting up with your friends, guys or girls, I don't mind, cause I trust that you wouldn't do anything stupid.. But this is what it ends up.. I trusted you more than myself.. =,(
I've been crying, walking by places where we used to hangout or just listen to music that we used to listen.. My tears just keeps on flowing.. =,(
I know I'm not perfect, I know I'm not good looking, I know I'm not smart, I know I'm not rich.. I admit. I know.. I'm aware of it..
But after more than one year being together.. I've never liked anyone or even look at anyone.. I'm so happy to have a soulmate like you.. Thinking of the sweet memories, the promises.. =,(
I'm the type that is loyal and keeps on holding on no matter how many arguments or fights, cause I believed that, there is always ups and down, everything is a learning process.. everything will change to be better in the future..
That is why people can last for more than 10years, 20years, 30years, 40years.. Cause I always believed, that you will be my first and last, suffer now.. But enjoy in the end.. The diamond ring, the wedding proposal plans.. The promises.. =,(
Took me hours to find this video.. Its almost the same idea, but different place.. Where there is a fountain, with nice lighting, with music and during the night.. So many people that I will be calling.. Oh well.. That's the link below.. It's not gonna come true anymore.. =,(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rygtCOgrCBk&feature=related
Honestly.. I couldn't let go.. I couldn't accept things that are happening around me.. Its just so sudden.. Just like a finger snap..
I know I'm imperfect. I admit..
You're with another guy, I pretty sure you don't know how I feel.. It's NOT because I'm lonely, I have friends.. But the problem with myself is that.. I always put my beloved in the first priority..
Now I'm so lost.. I don't know where am I, I don't know what am I supposed to do.. I'm being honest with myself.. And I don't fake happiness. If I'm happy, I show it, if I'm sad, I show it.
Oh well.. Seriously, I would do anything for you.. But, I don't know why I deserve all these..
I guess.. Rules and promises are meant to be broken.. Nothing lasts forever.. But my feelings are honest.. I don't lie about it. I still care and I still love you.. But you're forcing me to let go of you..
I don't know in the future what is going to happen.. But, it's no use pulling a string that is against the flow, cause in the end it would ended up snap and break. I cannot do anything, it's what you wanted..
I'm sorry for every bad thing that I've done, all the mistakes that I've done.. I never cheat on you.. It's against my moral..
To be honest, I love you.. but you're asking for it.. I'm forced.. to let you go.. =,(...........
People ask, only then I tell them, how I feel, why, when, I'm being honest.. It's sometimes not because they're jealous or what.. It's because they care. Why all of a sudden change, what exactly happen, maybe things can be fixed..
I trusted you.. I gave my everything, I sacrificed, I suffered for you, but I don't tell you, cause I never wanted you to feel the pain that I felt.. I gave my full heart to you.. I never thought it would end up like this.. =,(
Well, I'm being honest and sincere.
Always take good care of yourself, all the best in life, and whoever that is so lucky to have you, hope you will find true happiness.. Take care...
Whatever it is.. I'm not going to read whatever you're going to reply, cause you always want to hurt me ever since you're with him. Whatever you do I'm pretty sure you have a reason behind it.. Its okay.. Just ignore me.. Take care.
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